listening to Three Days Grace - I hate everything about you. it's come to my attention that all of the external links on my website have been mojibaked to all hell. i have no idea how to fix this. i'm trying something new today; i wrote this at school then emailed myself to copy/paste it to the website. anyways, about that message box thing; the idea for it is that people can type messages/questions to m e and it displays them on the website. however, i have zero clue how to implement something like this.
pulling an all-nighter. im debating making some kind of message box system on my website but i'm not really sure as to how to implement such a thing. might research this.
i'm sure you saw what happened in my last video. it's not very fun but hey, at least i face-revealed. i decided that since socialization is a distant glimpse into the past, i'll just delve deeper into my hobbies to balance it out. i'm creating a new page to post random car-related content, but mostly finds from my strange google maps car-spotting hobby (more on that later).
on a 4 day weekend (because of senior skip day) now. listening to そうして私が. i mowed the lawn and messed up my sinuses for a little bit. i guess i'm not used to the midwest pollen. i took a shower earlier and feel much better. i kind of feel like i'm in a weird limbo right now. i was supposed to edit that film but i'm taking today off. the assignment isn't even due until next month so idk why im freaking out about it. that being said, melanie lives another day.
good news and bad news: german kid never responded, said anything to me IRL, BUT, i did the same trick with C and he not only took the paper but immediately texted "how's it going?" so clearly something good happened today. i've started work on a short film for my final project in my film class, but i cant really show it or the script because it's extremely personal and almost all of the shots are done on location, locations that could probably easily doxx me, lol. sorry. i can talk about it though.
today has been a bit of a rollercoaster of emotions and events. i don't know the certanity of anything that has happened today but i know that i alteast have one friend. so basically the reason why im saying all of this is because first my friend let me hang out with his friend group, then i met this german guy that i'm slowly becoming unhealthily obsessed with, i gave him my number, and he never texted me. i'm starting to think i scared him away and i feel like shit for it.
i finally got the new website up and running. before i upload my youtube video about it, i'm going to go ahead and bring up something VERY important. i made a friend. like, an actual IRL friend. i know i had talked about a friend group earlier, but i found out that apparently it was just a one time thing and this guy (for anonymity's sake i'll call him C), doesn't really hang out with that group. that being said though, i sat with him and his other friend at lunch today and i finally got to know his name, and i got to talk to him more.
i sorta proved my hypothesis of whether hes actually my friend or not when i ran into him in the hallway. C said hi to me out of nowhere, of course i just said hi back without actually approaching him since i was late to class but still, that proves that he definitely views me as a friend. this sounds really out of pocket but it's kinda difficult to have guy friends and NOT be attracted to them when you're this lonely.
either way, today was a good day, and do you know what that means? it means that melanie lives another day.